Leaving for NY

So I am going to be leaving for New York on Sunday... and I am not allowed to use my phone the whole time...

So I would have liked to been able to talk to you before I leave... I understand that you made plans to watch tv with Chelsea... and play video games with Rhead...

But when have you made plans to spend anytime with me? o do I not get that time... Why do you not like me enough to want to spend time with me or talk to me....

Video games can be played tomorrow... tv can be watched tomorrow... but I wont be here tomorrow...

I still have this overwhelming feeling that I am not important to you... and I am trying to be understanding and not interrupt your time... but it hurts so much...  and you just are never going to get it... You feel guilty because you know you are not doing the right thing... and it hurts me....

I can't do it anymore...