Lots Of Thinking

I have spent a lot of time for the past week reflecting and praying for some clarity on the things that are weighing on my heart so heavily....

I feel more confused then ever... I no longer know what I want in a relationship or if I even want one at all anymore or anytime soon...

I just want to know that God has a plan for me and that I will be guided to the one that was created for me....

I am tired of fighting for this image I have of my personal life... I want to be persuade and cared for.... I want actions for back up all the words... Actions... Yes... I want actions. 


I am sooo happy in the mountains and I am learning that I can be sooo happy and fulfilled by myself. I know it takes more than a week but I have had a great start!

I have been trying to eat right. Lots of fresh food and eating regular meals... and I have also been exercising. It isn't bad when you have the scenery of Lake Junaluska!

Tomorrow I have a fitness class at 6am and then going hiking through the mountains with the bosses to break in the hiking boots. :D Super excited!

I am starting to reconnect with God and a very deep level bc of where I am and what I am doing... In all my confusion... I am very clear with my knowledge that I need people in my life that are going to share my faith and be able to  spiritually push each other... Can't skimp on that at all anymore...